Nothing seems the same anymore. I am torn and broken, happy and sad at the same time. I have lost so much and gained so little.
I smile and act like nothing is wrong but I’m dying inside. I feel like I’ve been living a lie. And behind this smile Is an irreparable heart. I would forgive you over and over again because I was afraid of losing you but you never saw my worth .My precious heart is bleeding…. Endless
. I expected too much from you and I never learnt to let go, I got so attached to you, more than I should have and when you finally left you left with a part of me that Is irreplaceable. It’s like you tore my heart from my body and now it hurts so bad. I am so angry at myself for still loving you the way I do. No matter what I try to do I still think of your electric touch, your warm tender kisses, your smooth whisper over my ears, your caresses that sent fireworks down my spine, your sweet hugs that melted my heart
. I still remember your hands wiping my tears when I cried for you. I know I can never love anyone the way I loved you.
I see you everyday and my heart crushes a little more because it has dawned on me that you never really loved me. All those promises were a living lie. I wish I could keep the tears from falling a and my heart from this pain. Although my heart is the one hurting, I feel like every other part of my body is broken too.I can’t find solace in the moon, the sun,not even the waters.
Even though I don’t want to admit it you are the only one who has worked ever made me feel loved a and I am so lost without you. I guess I finally have to learn how to untangle you from me .I have to learn to let go. However painful…..I will let you go…………………….
By Diana Mitch